Stuck in a hole too scared to climb out
Uncertainty is scarier than the current pain
It’s familiar and in its own way comforting
And that one thought that returns
To reassure there is a another way out
It’s inevitable anyway why not surrender
The constant battle inside spilling out
Hurting everyone especially you
Not even the physical lashing out
The cruel things you tell yourself
You’re still not listening to the hurt
The wailing voice in your guts
The sounds that make everything churn
She doesn’t want to hurt you
She’s scared and maybe even angry
She’s impulsive and still acting out
You’ve been told so many time
Don’t reward it, ignore, ignore
It’s just attention seeking
Connection seeking sounds nicer
A more attractive frame
Choked with words that shouldn’t be said
Pressure has to be released somehow
It doesn’t have to feel so unsafe